ok update on my last music note: i found new music! i forced myself to sit down and actually find things to listen to that would make me feel better and i found this sick band called wargasm. ive been listening to a playlist with their music and more like it and im really enjoying it! life can be kinda rough but having something good to listen to makes it feel not so bad.

i found this thing while web browsing and i FUCK WITH IT HEAVY. check this shit out

I NEED TO LISTEN TO NEW MUSIC!!! its been so long since ive found something new to listen to and lately when i open my music app i can never decide what i want to hear. music has been a really important part of my life ever since i started discovering my own taste when i was younger. when i was really little i would just listen to whatever pop was on the radio. i liked it but once i heard music i REALLY liked i realized how the things on the radio never really spoke to me. i still remember when i was at a friends house and we were listening to his pandora playlist together when i heard the song Fantasy by Alina Baraz. it was the most beautiful song id ever heard and i asked him to send it to me after i went home. Eventually that friendship ended very badly but i still appreciate him for helping me realize what good music was out there in the world.

when i was in high school i came across a playlist by an artist i liked on tumblr and that was my first introduction to synthwave. at first i didnt even like it that much but something about it made me want to keep listening. once i started to get bored of that playlist i started creating my own synthwave playlist and found a lot of songs that i really truly liked. i realized how much i loved the genre and how it made me feel when i listened to it.

later on starting college i listened to some music that one of my tumblr mutuals posted and that was my first introduction to breakcore. i was really stressed and overwhelmed at the the time and the genre really connected with my mental and emotional state. thats probably not a good thing lol but i loved listening to it and letting the chaos of it help quiet my thoughts.

anyway. all this to say that music has helped me through a lot of points in my life in a lot of different ways. and this is only a small sample of the stuff i listen to! life has been scary and hard lately and i havent even had any time to sit down and find new music to add to my playlists. but i hope that soon i will be able to find new songs and albums and artists i like. its nice to remember that even tho theres so much music i enjoy theres so much more that i would love but havent even found yet!

this turned into such a long note lol oops. anyway thats all i have to say, bye for now!

i found a cool dolls page while browsing the web today. i love the style of old internet dolls i wish i new how to make my own. i remember i came across a different dolls page when i first started looking around neocities, if i find i again ill be sure to add the link here! maybe i should add some of my favorite dolls to my gifs page...

ive found a lot of cool websites in my time browsing neocities. you can find my favorites on my links page but i wanted to post some of the others ive browsed through or thought looked interesting here. i might add some of these to my links page once ive looked through them more but until then they can have a home here

ive been getting back into working on this site lately. school was crazy stressful for a while and i realized only recently how much i missed coding and browsing the web. theres something magical about going through sites on neocities and following links down rabbitholes to old archived sites and cool online spaces you never would see otherwise. i wanted to make this page as a way to share more of the things i find as well as post some content of my own. i used to have a diary on my site when i first started working on it, but i felt shy about sharing my thoughts and life on a public place like this and eventually deleted it. i hope that this notes page can be something like that but with less pressure for me to post and be personal. anyway thats enough rambling for now, if youre reading this i hope you enjoy my page!